planning to go to That bar again,
                             tonight          as if going to see my man,
                                                   i took care-like never-

before

i sat down in the shower 
I pulled 
                        the razor  
against 
& slowly- 

the hair

-the stark white skin 
below permissive curly 
the hair slightly darker gave
                                     behind a dark green curtain 
                           against
white skintimate-sensitive foam

 a waking

with a scented-sage-demise 
the loofah gloves
                            two by two led

                                      to what it is between

             towards a second visit to That bar 

twice, no
          i assure you that it is not what i intend

back to the neon
                        refraction wanting to ask exactly 
                        just how close your mouth was to mine, but listening to

“you could have your choice of men Jolene”

with the careful articulation 
of legs lotioned
                                      yes even a small amount on the thighs
                                                 wondering

            no, not thinking you would
                                                         go here
although it is interesting to think

if I don't look good in the neon-
light smoked and drowning-
it's isn't because I danced too close
                                         it's for my wanting

                                                   the mouthful of exactly how.